Happy Saturday friends! If you’re reading this post you have made it to the last Saturday of the year! What such a blessing it is to be here to say that! As I think back and reflect on this year, 2024 has truly been an interesting year to say the least. I’ve seen a few people describe this year as being a year where when it was good it was good and when it was bad it was bad. As I think about January to December so many things transpired that have really shook the core of a lot of things in our world. From the entertainment industry being exposed to many historical events just to name a few.
For me, the only word that I’ve been able to use to describe 2024 for me is the word disappointing. Even as I’m writing this now I would like to say that my year was blessed in so many aspects and disappointing in many others. I experienced a lot of loss and eye-opening clarity that broke my heart. I spent a lot of this year wondering “why” to a lot of things. I had many moments where I felt like God didn’t follow through on the many things that I prayed for. I found myself in moments where my faith was shaken but it all made me stronger spiritually in many ways. I experienced a suffering this year that really had me over it all. In that I’ve continued to grow in many aspects of my life spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. I experienced a lot of heartbreak behind closed doors, extended a lot of grace and forgiveness, and dealt with what comes with acceptance that has been tough to swallow at times. I’ve spent a lot of this year forgiving myself and letting myself be free from a lot of things that I’ve carried for so long.
Even in all of that, some of which I’m still currently and actively navigating there were many highs that I experienced this year as well. I published a launched my first book. Something that I had been holding on to for the past 4 years. I celebrated my 1 year anniversary of being a therapist. I celebrated in many different ways internally finally finding my people and safe space. I spent a lot of time putting myself first for the first time. I freely allowed myself to celebrate me and do what makes me happy. I crossed a few things off my list of things that I have never experienced but want to experience list lol. I created more experiences for myself. I allowed myself to be uncomfortable and allowed my gifts to make room for me and give God glory. One thing I’m proud of the most is that I grew tremendously in communicating my needs and my feelings to my family and people that I am in relationship/community with. Which is something that has always been so hard for me to do. I pushed myself to do a lot of things this year that I didn’t think I was even ready or “qualified” to do.
I’m so greatful for the support that I’ve had this year. The people who carried me, covered me, and just loved on me in the moments where I couldn’t do it for myself. That was something that I had been praying for, for a long time. Friendships that would allow me the space to be myself, be free, and give me grace to be human. I can honestly say that I have finally found that for me and I’m grateful.
I’m looking forward to 2025. I really am preparing myself to go into 2025 with my hope renewed. I’m looking forward to hoping again and believing again fully. I look forward to being refocused and walking in purpose.
My prayer today is simply that God will carry us in and through 2025 with new mercy and grace!
With love,
-Yours Truly, Eb
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